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on。
Edward had an obsessive sort of concern over the human things that I would be giving up； the
experiences he didn't want me to miss。 Most of them—like the prom； for example—seemed silly to me。
There was only one human experience I worried about missing。 Of course it would be the one he wished
I would forget pletely。
Here was the thing； though。 I knew a little about what I was going to be like when I wasn't human
anymore。 I'd seen newborn vampires firsthand； and I'd heard all my familytobe's stories about those
wild early days。 For several years； my biggest personality trait was going to be thirsty； it would take
some time before I could be me again。 And even when I was in control of myself； I would never feel
exactly the way I felt now。
Human。。。 and passionately in love。
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I wanted the plete experience before I traded in my warm； breakable； pheromoneriddled body for
something beautiful； strong。。。 and unknown。 I wanted a real honeymoon with Edward。 And； despite the
danger he feared this would put me in； he'd agreed to try。
I was only vaguely aware of Alice and the slip and slide of satin over my skin。 I didn't care； for the
moment； that the whole town was talking about me。 I didn't think about the spectacle I would have to
star in much too soon。 I didn't worry about tripping on my train or giggling at the wrong moment or being
too young or the staring audience or even the empty seat where my best friend should be。
I was with Edward in my happy place。
2。 LONG NIGHT
〃I miss you already。〃
〃I don't need to leave。 I can stay___〃
〃Mmm。〃
It was quiet for a long moment； just the thud of my heart hammering； the broken rhythm of our ragged
breathing； and the whisper of our lips moving in synchronization。
Sometimes it was so easy to forget that I was kissing a vampire。 Not because he seemed ordinary or
human—I could never for a second forget that I was holding someone more angel than man in my
arms—but because he made it seem like nothing at all to have his lips against my lips； my face； my throat。
He claimed he was long past the temptation my blood used to be for him； that the idea of losing me had
cured him of any desire for it。 But I knew the smell of my blood still caused him pain—still burned his
throat like he was inhaling flames。
I opened my eyes and found his open； too； staring at my face。 It made no sense when he looked at me
that way。 Like I was the prize rather than the outrageously lucky winner。
Our gazes locked for a moment； his golden eyes were so deep that I imagined I could see all the way
into his soul。 It seemed silly that this fact—the existence of his soul—had ever been in question； even if
he was a vampire。 He had the most beautiful soul； more beautiful than his brilliant mind or his
inparable face or his glorious body。
He looked back at me as if he could see my soul； too； and as if he liked what he saw。
He couldn't see into my mind； though； the way he saw into everyone else's。 Who knew why—some
strange glitch in my brain that made it immune to all the extraordinary and frightening things some
immortals could do。 （Only my mind was immune； my body was still subject to vampires with abilities that
worked in ways other than Edward's。） But I was seriously grateful to whatever malfunction it was that
kept my thoughts a secret。 It was just too embarrassing to consider the alternative。
I pulled his face to mine again。
〃Definitely staying；〃 he murmured a moment later。
〃No； no。 It's your bachelor party。 You have to go。〃
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I said the words； but the fingers of my right hand locked into his bronze hair； my left pressed tighter
against the small of his back。 His cool hands stroked my face。
〃Bachelor parties are designed for those who are sad to see the passing of their single days。 I couldn't be
more eager to have mine behind me。 So there's really no point。〃
〃True。〃 I breathed against the wintercold skin of his throat。
This was pretty close to my happy place。 Charlie slept obliviously in his room； which was almost as
good as being alone。 We were curled up on my small bed； intertwined as much as it was possible；
considering the thick afghan I was swathed in like a cocoon。 I hated the necessity of the blanket； but it
sort of ruined the romance when my teeth started chattering。 Charlie would notice if I turned the heat on
in August___
At least； if had to be bundled up； Edward's shirt was on the floor。 I never got over the shock of how
perfect his body was—white； cool； and polished as marble。 I ran my hand down his stone chest now；
tracing across the flat planes of his stomach； just marveling。 A light shudder rippled through him； and his
mouth found mine again。 Carefully； I let the tip of my tongue press against his glasssmooth lip； and he
sighed。 His sweet breath washed—cold and delicious—over my face。
He started to pull away—that was his automatic response whenever he decided things had gone too far；
his reflex reaction whenever he most wanted to keep going。 Edward had spent most of his life rejecting
any kind of physical gratification。 I knew it was terrifying to him trying to change those habits now。
〃Wait；〃 I said； gripping his shoulders and hugging myself close to him。 I kicked one leg free and wrapped
it around his waist。 〃Practice makes perfect。〃
He chuckled。 〃Well； we should be fairly close to perfection by this point； then； shouldn't we？ Have you
slept at all in the last month？〃
〃But this is the dress rehearsal；〃 I reminded him； 〃and we've only practiced certain scenes。 It's no time
for playing safe。〃
I thought he would laugh； but he didn't answer； and his body was motionless with sudden stress。 The
gold in his eyes seemed to harden from a liquid to a solid。
I thought over my words； realized what he would have heard in them。
〃Bella。。。；〃 he whispered。
〃Don't start this again；〃 I said。 〃A deal's a deal。〃
〃I don't know。 It's too hard to concentrate when you're with me like this。 I—I can't think straight。 I won't
be able to control myself。 You'll get hurt。〃
〃I'll be fine。〃
〃Bella 。 。。〃
〃Shh！〃 I pressed my lips to his to stop his panic attack。 I'd heard it before。 He wasn't getting out of this
deal。 Not after insisting I marry him first。
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He kissed me back for a moment； but I could tell he wasn't as into it as before。 Worrying； always
worrying。 How different it would be when he didn't need to worry about me anymore。 What would he do
with all his free time？ He'd have to get a new hobby。
〃How are your feet？〃 he asked。
Knowing he didn't mean that literally； I answered； Toasty warm。〃
〃Really？ No second thoughts？ It's not too late to change your mind。〃
〃Are you trying to ditch me？〃
He chuckled。 〃Just making sure。 I don't want you to do anything you're not sure about。〃
〃I'm sure about you。 The rest I can live through。〃
He hesitated； and I wondered if I'd put my foot in my mouth again。
〃Can you？〃 he asked quietly。 〃I don't mean the wedding—which I am positive you will survive despite
your qualms—but afterward。。。 what about Renee； what about Charlie？〃
I sighed。 〃I'll miss them。〃 Worse； that they would miss me； but I didn't want to give him any fuel。
〃Angela and Ben and Jessica and Mike。〃
〃I'll miss my friends； too。〃 I smiled in the darkness。 〃Especially Mike。 Oh； Mike！ How will I go on？〃
He growled。
I laughed but then was serious。 〃Edward； we've been through this and through this。 I know it will be
hard； but this is what I want。 I want you； and I want you forever。 One lifetime is simply not enough for
me。〃
〃Frozen forever at eighteen；〃 he whispered。
〃Every woman's dream e true；〃 I teased。
〃Never changing。。。 never moving forward。〃
〃What does that mean？〃
He answered slowly。 〃Do you remember when we told Charlie we were getting married？ And h