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thought of the ribbing Emmett would no doubt dish out； and I changed the subject。 “Are you thirsty already？” I
asked； reaching up to stroke the light shadow beneath his eye。 His irises were still a deep gold。
“Not really。” He seemed reluctant to answer； and that surprised me。 I waited for an explanation。
“We want to be as strong as possible；” he explained； still reluctant。 “We’ll probably hunt again on the way；
looking for big game。”
“That makes you stronger？”
He searched my face for something； but there was nothing to find but curiosity。
“Yes；” he finally said。 “Human blood makes us the strongest； though only fractionally。 Jasper’s been
thinking about cheating — adverse as he is to the idea； he’s nothing if not practical — but he won’t suggest it。
He knows what Carlisle will say。”
“Would that help？” I asked quietly。
“It doesn’t matter。 We aren’t going to change who we are。”
I frowned。 If something helped even the odds 。 。 。 and then I shuddered； realizing I was willing to have a
stranger die to protect him。 I was horrified at myself； but not entirely able to deny it； either。
He changed the subject again。 “That’s why they’re so strong； of course。 The newborns are full of human
blood — their own blood； reacting to the change。 It lingers in the tissues and strengthens them。 Their bodies
use it up slowly； like Jasper said； the strength starting to wane after about a year。”
“How strong will I be？”
He grinned。 “Stronger than I am。”
“Stronger than Emmett？”
The grin got bigger。 “Yes。 Do me a favor and challenge him to an armwrestling match。 It would be a
good experience for him。”
I laughed。 It sounded so ridiculous。
Then I sighed and hopped down from the counter； because I really couldn’t put it off any longer。 I had to
cram； and cram hard。 Luckily I had Edward’s help； and Edward was an excellent tutor — since he knew
absolutely everything。 I figured my biggest problem would be just focusing on the tests。 If I didn’t watch
myself； I might end up writing my History essay on the vampire wars of the South。
I took a break to call Jacob； and Edward seemed just as fortable as he had when I was on the phone
with Renée。 He played with my hair again。
Though it was the middle of the afternoon； my call woke Jacob up； and he was grouchy at first。 He
cheered right up when I asked if I could visit the next day。 The Quileute school was already out for the
summer； so he told me to e over as early as I could。 I was pleased to have an option besides being
babysat。 There was a tiny bit more dignity in spending the day with Jacob。
Some of that dignity was lost when Edward insisted again on delivering me to the border line like a child
being exchanged by custodial guardians。
“So how do you feel you did on your exams？” Edward asked on the way； making small talk。
“History was easy； but I don’t know about the Calculus。 It seemed like it was making sense； so that
probably means I failed。”
He laughed。 “I’m sure you did fine。 Or； if you’re really worried； I could bribe Mr。 Varner to give you an
A。”
“Er； thanks； but no thanks。”
He laughed again； but suddenly stopped when we turned the last bend and saw the red car waiting。 He
frowned in concentration； and then； as he parked the car； he sighed。
“What’s wrong？” I asked； my hand on the door。
He shook his head。 “Nothing。” His eyes were narrowed as he stared through the windshield toward the
other car。 I’d seen that look before。
“You’re not listening to Jacob； are you？” I accused。
“It’s not easy to ignore someone when he’s shouting。”
“Oh。” I thought about that for a second。 “What’s he shouting？” I whispered。
“I’m absolutely certain he’ll mention it himself；” Edward said in a wry tone。
I would have pressed the issue； but then Jacob honked his horn — two quick impatient honks。
“That’s impolite；” Edward growled。
“That’s Jacob；” I sighed； and I hurried out before Jacob did something to really set Edward’s teeth on
edge。
I waved to Edward before I got into the Rabbit and； from that distance； it looked like he was truly upset
about the honking thing 。 。 。 or whatever Jacob was thinking about。 But my eyes were weak and made
mistakes all the time。
I wanted Edward to e to me。 I wanted to make both of them get out of their cars and shake hands
and be friends — be Edward and Jacob rather than vampire and werewolf。 It was as if I had those two
stubborn mags in my hands again； and I was holding them together； trying to force nature to reverse herself。
。 。 。
I sighed； and climbed in Jacob’s car。
“Hey； Bells。” Jake’s tone was cheerful； but his voice dragged。 I examined his face as he started down the
road； driving a little faster than I did； but slower than Edward； on his way back to La Push。
Jacob looked different； maybe even sick。 His eyelids drooped and his face was drawn。 His shaggy hair
stuck out in random directions； it was almost to his chin in some places。
“Are you all right； Jake？”
“Just tired；” he managed to get out before he was overe by a massive yawn。 When he finished； he
asked； “What do you want to do today？”
I eyed him for a moment。 “Let’s just hang out at your place for now；” I suggested。 He didn’t look like he
was up for much more than that。 “We can ride our bikes later。”
“Sure； sure；” he said； yawning again。
Jacob’s house was vacant； and that felt strange。 I realized I thought of Billy as a nearly permanent fixture
there。
“Where’s your dad？”
“Over at the Clearwaters’。 He’s been hanging out there a lot since Harry died。 Sue gets lonely。”
Jacob sat down on the old couch that was no bigger than a loveseat and squished himself to the side to
make room for me。
“Oh。 That’s nice。 Poor Sue。”
“Yeah 。 。 。 she’s having some trouble。 。 。 。” He hesitated。 “With her kids。”
“Sure； it’s got to be hard on Seth and Leah； losing their dad。 。 。 。”
“Uhhuh；” he agreed； lost in thought。 He picked up the remote and flipped on the TV without seeming to
think about it。 He yawned。
“What’s with you； Jake？ You’re like a zombie。”
“I got about two hours of sleep last night； and four the night before；” he told me。 He stretched his long
arms slowly； and I could hear the joints crack as he flexed。 He settled his left arm along the back of the sofa
behind me； and slumped back to rest his head against the wall。 “I’m exhausted。”
“Why aren’t you sleeping？” I asked。
He made a face。 “Sam’s being difficult。 He doesn’t trust your bloodsuckers。 I’ve been running double
shifts for two weeks and nobody’s touched me yet； but he still doesn’t buy it。 So I’m on my own for now。”
“Double shifts？ Is this because you’re trying to watch out for me？ Jake； that’s wrong！ You need to sleep。
I’ll be fine。”
“It’s no big deal。” His eyes were abruptly more alert。 “Hey； did you ever find out who was in your room？
Is there anything new？”
I ignored the second question。 “No； we didn’t find anything out about my； um； visitor。”
“Then I’ll be around；” he said as his eyes slid closed。
“Jake 。 。 。 ；” I started to whine。
“Hey； it’s the least I can do — I offered eternal servitude； remember。 I’m your slave for life。”
“I don’t want a slave！”
His eyes didn’t open。 “What do you want； Bella？”
“I want my friend Jacob — and I don’t want him halfdead； hurting himself in some misguided attempt —”
He cut me off。 “Look at it this way — I’m hoping I can track down a vampire I’m allowed to kill； okay？”
I didn’t answer。 He looked at me then； peeking at my reaction。
“Kidding； Bella。”
I stared at the TV。
“So； any special plans next week？ You’re graduating。 Wow。 That’s big。” His voice turned flat； and his
face； already drawn； looked downright haggard as his eyes closed again — not in exhaustion this time； but in
denial。 I realized that graduation still had a horrible significance for him； though my intentions were now
disrupted。
“No special plans；” I said carefully； hoping he would hear the reassurance in my words without a more
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